Enduring Long-Suffering Due To Chronic Pain : Based On My Own Personal Journey

When you’ve spent so many years of your life in chronic pain, 20yrs for me, it can unfortunately rob you of your identity for many various reasons. When actual years go by while suffering in pain, the physical misery can turn into psychological misery that’s much harder to later overcome. You can experience and see the physical healing, but the psychological healing is much tougher due to newly established negative thought patterns that can naturally manifest while suffering misery that feels like there’s no end in sight! You’re true strength comes from your Joy, but what do you do once you’ve lost your Joy due to the extensive amount of suffering you’ve experienced? It can be difficult to get it back, and that’s Spiritual suffering! The loss of Hope and Joy due to the longevity of your suffering is what can lead you to being robbed Spiritually if you let it. Although it’s the one of the 3 we have the most control over with our relationship with Jesus through the Holy Spirit, when lost it’s by far the most devastating! Even the most positive, spirit filled people can inevitably fall into these negative thought patterns when they’ve been Spiritually robbed on a long enough timeline of suffering. When experienced over a long enough period of time these thought patterns can easily transform your identity. If you’ve been suffering for 3yrs or more it’s hard to remember what life was like or what you were like before the pain or condition took over your life. You can easily fall into the trap of self-medicating to feel “normal” again, or to feel like the old self you think you remember. As long as you can forget about your condition and be happy, even if it’s just for a minute and might cost you in the long run, you’ll do anything to experience “happiness” again even if it’s back to misery tomorrow. The self-medicating is really just to “mask”and “beat” the depression you don’t want to deal with, or want anyone to see. While hopefully experiencing the feeling of some level of normality you might remember from your past, possibly triggering a form of happiness you might recognize and be able to connect to even if it’s just for a night. That’s a pretty sad state of affairs, I’ve obviously been there and speak from experience. It’s a tough cycle to break even after you’re healed, because even though you might be physically healed you’ve created bad habits and coping mechanisms to “deal with a condition” that you no longer suffer from. Habits have to be dealt with now that you have “no reason” to use because you’re healed. Now your mental anguish gets ramped up, and it becomes your “new” reason for the bad habits and coping mechanisms you’ve developed which can become a way of life if you let them, while adopting a sort of victim mentality. DON’T LET THIS HAPPEN TO U!!!

Although you might have every legitimate reason to claim that you’re a victim you should NEVER go down that road! That’s a ONE WAY ROAD with a DEAD END!!! It’s understandably hard to explain how you feel a certain way inside, especially when the pain is felt so deeply on the inside where no one can see it. People will tell you to just get over it because you “look” fine, after all you look normal to everyone on the outside, but they have no idea of how deep the inner wound and identity crisis is your dealing with. But what happens when you’re finally healed and are Spiritually overcoming? How do you break this habit of needing to feel “normal” again when you no longer have a real idea of what that is due to such a long time of suffering and self-medicating? It takes a STRONG commitment to your relationship with God to start to repair all that is lost in all that time. It has to be conscious effort towards mind renewal and relationship with the Holy Spirit EVERY DAY to see progress. Progress looks different for everyone so please be kind to yourself while you’re progressing. Remember you’re definitely gonna fall a time or two and make plenty of mistakes, get over it, We ALL Do! Get used to mistakes as being a necessary part of life for learning and progressing, in my case sometimes a way of life…🤷‍♂️ It’s not about how many mistakes you make, it’s about how you react and learn from them while you keep moving forward! Sometimes it might look like nothing’s happening, but you never know what God’s doing behind the scenes, so that “appearance of nothing” going on could be God lining up your biggest blessing to date! While other times things might be supernaturally exploding all around you! The key is not to get too caught up on the “appearance of things”, for we walk by Faith not by Sight, so keep a level head and a level heart to remain steadfast in all situations and victory is guaranteed. My Brother in Christ’s grandmother Ms Pearle was one of the most incredible and spiritually influential people in my life, and she would always say “Just be still…” I wish someone would have told me this long ago, I could’ve wasted a lot less time in Spiritual misery along with the physical misery, while not creating the habits and coping mechanisms that lead to the psychological misery! We need to remember that Spiritual misery is what we have control over with complete 24/7 access to the aide of the Holy Spirit through our relationship with Jesus Christ, especially when not much can be done about what you’re suffering physically. Not to mention we can avoid the psychological mess if we stay rooted in the word, never losing hope in the one who will NEVER leave us or FORSAKE us! If you find yourself lost in the middle of a period of long-suffering that just seems to make no sense, you can turn it around and realize it’s an opportunity to grow in your relationship with Jesus through the Holy Spirit! (James 1:2-4) While experiencing what it truly means to “boast in your weakness”, the power of God is made perfect in our weakness, (2 Cor 12:9-10) so take advantage of this opportunity to truly experience God’s power and the nearly unbreakable Trust and Faith that’s developing between you and God during this time! I feel like I’m finally waking up from this nightmare I’ve been stuck in for 2 long decades, but it will continue to require daily attention towards my relationship and mind renewal to maintain where I’m at and to keep progressing further. Which is no problem because it’s become a way of life at this point, I can’t imagine life any other way! I’ve received the greatest gift of all at the end of my suffering, an unshakable, unbeatable, unrivaled relationship with the God of the universe! The Holy Spirit is something I couldn’t imagine life without, now no matter what struggle life sends my way, I’ll never have to go through it alone again…

Thanks be to the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit!!! THEY MAKE ALL THINGS POSSIBLE!!! God Bless!!!

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